I am feeling a bit relieved now and I am a little less stressed. I was finally able to get some writing done a few days ago. It has been far too long since anything I was happy with. Ive only made a small dent in everything that I have been unable to let go. At least I know I havent lost the ability to write. I honestly felt like Id never be able to write again. Okay so thats a little dramatic, but its the longest stretch I have gone without it. Four poems is only a drop in the bucket when its been over a year. I will take what I can get. Im hoping it will give me the motivation and the inspiration I need to keep going. Now that I know all is not lost. And that something better is just around the corner.
Im hoping that I will be able to continue working on the book and that the poetry will flow more freely now so that I can finish the anthology. Im long overdo. One step at a time I guess. I will get there. I just gotta stay focused. Which is hard lately, especially with work and the holiday season taking up a lot of my time. Things will slow down. I love the holidays as much as the next person. I will be glad when they are over and things go back to normal.
The Yearning Place
Persistant are the dreams of a web woven from tasks
we must betray.
I am emerged in such things,
I've become weary of deeds I cannot undo.
As your enemy,
I must stay distant, yet close.
I won't be alone any longer.
I can't honor myself because of the changes coursing
through me,
Like venom through a vein.
Curse this darkness for giving me everything,
Then taking it all back.
Leaving me in a place of yearning,
You can no longer give me what I need.
I've become weary of things I cannot change.
I can't get too close,
And become the victim again,
Of what it is I am yearning.
12/12/09
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