Writer's block seems like such a small thing, until you have had it for over a year. Imagine all that just building up over time. It becomes quite overwelming. I know part of it is due to work, I don't have the time I use to. And when I find the time, its just not there. And working came to feel like the end of my writing. The less time I had to focus on it the more frustrating it became. I am doing my best to make the time and give myself the chance to find my place again.
For those who know me, know that writing is a big part of who I am. And with that I have come to a point in my life where its time to rediscover who I am as a writer. Ive realized the normal things that use to give me inspiration, don't anymore. It is time to move on and move outside my comfort zone and see where it leads me. Even if this means going to sources Ive never thought would lead me anywhere. I can't very well grow as a person much less as a writer if I can't write from something I haven't experienced. I could write from imagination which is a great thing. But it doesn't nearly give the impact and the emotion you need when you write from experience. Its the real and raw emotion I thrive on to write and I just haven't felt it lately.
I have many things that give me reason to, I just need to find the reason to allow myself to go to that place because it can't be forced. It needs to come naturally. And its just not there.
I'm spending today looking at things from a different perspective, taking notes and hoping that soon I will be able to function with a clearer mind and a lighter burden. I say this because having all this built up emotion is like carrying a weight on your shoulders. Something that can only be lightened by the right outlet. Ive tried many things to cope but it still brings me back to what I need to do. So I am hoping by keeping a blog it will give my mind the creative exercise it needs so things won't be so jumbled together.
I'm not keeping this blog for anyone but myself. If someone reads it and gets something from it thats great. And who knows if I get any feedback that gives me something to work from. Then that isn't so bad either. Im not trying to tell my life story here. I just want to do whatever I can to fuel my fire and practice my craft.
Yes I know that feeling all too well. Yet knowing that it can be gone in a moment I find I walk away getting almost frightened of what I may put down. Or what may come out and what others could think from that. You're a wonderful writer and maybe you need a vacation!! I know I do as does the rest of the world!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks, I do need a vacation I think that would help tremendously. For now id be content with just a few days out of town.
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